Texting

Just learned how to read texts. I'd always thought that the first window you see to view texts (much like the home page of the email inbox, before you click on an individual email) was the only text my phone could read. So it's like I've just been reading subject lines the whole time. When people would ask if I text, I'd say "my phone is really antiquated and my plan only allows for eight words of text." This wasn't true at all. I just didn't know you could click on each text to read the whole thing!

So I was able to go back and finish reading five years of texts. One that really stood out was from a friend of mine who killed himself in Miami by jumping off a building back in '06. Delayed onset of schizophrenia my wife's shrink says it probably was. He was 28. Most people lose their sanity much earlier.

Anyhow, he had sent me a text that read "Do you ever feel like you're slowly going..." I thought nothing of it and of course never clicked on it to read the whole thing. Two days later he killed himself. So I look back through our emails and our texts to see if there was any clues I may have missed. Not surprisingly, this one stood out. "Do you ever feel like you're slowly going insane" the text must have read. So I'm kicking myself thinking I could have saved his life. If only I had called and settled him down. At the time I received the text, I thought he was just stressed out over exams or some girlfriend. He always had lady issues and would call to discuss constantly. Turns out the text read "Do you ever feel like you're slowly going retarded?" So I guess it wasn't some huge clue that I should have acted on. Probably should've called him anyhow. Sorry, Curtis.